dissapointed

what can i do right now....???
i'm soooo stupid 2 love him.... how can i love him, his my OMG i don't know what i should said....!!! can anyone help me? how could i do such thing...
it's a disgrace to my family... i shouldn't fall in love with him...
now i believe with the phrase "LOVE IS BLIND".

i'll see him once every year only...
since last year i know i been waiting for him...
but i keep it professional...
i know what i should and should not do...

both of us know what we should do...
just stay as normal, not more than that...

sometimes i felt like mighty God isn't fair...
why should i live in this cruel life like this....
it isn't fair for me...
i know i shouldn't complaint that much as other is more unfortunate than me...
but i have been a good girl, good child...
but why can't i get what i deserved for...????
maybe this is just an obstacles for me to get through...
i understand what His going to do...
i know we could not be together anyhow...
i wish he'll find a right girl that suitable for him...
God bless him...

so......
what can i do???

Just wait for another right guy to appear in the future...